kakatihan

Hindi ko maikakaila na minsan nagiging makati din ako. I’m trying to be an honest and loyal partner pero minsan pumapalya ako simply because of certain unexpected occurrences.

May 25. Dumating ka dito sa Manila pero wala akong kaalam-alam. I still remember the days na nagtetext tayo, you’re asking for some financial help para may pampamasahe ka mahabol lang ang girlfriend mo dito before she totally leaves towards Singapore. Nag-offer ako ng assistance and I promised to help you out pero sa isang kundisyon- na you’ll spend one titillating night with me. You definitely agree just to be here asap. And I was surprise na nandito ka na pala even without my support. Ganun ka ka-desperate and ka-eager para makahanp ng diskarte dun para sundan lang ang gf mo. I admire you for that, how you really love that woman.

Nung una pa lang naman kita makita, I know I have this hidden admiration over you but I kept this in my heart. Pinaniwala ko sarili ko na hindi ka naman dapat hangaan, you’re just an ordinary person anyway. But then when you left Manila that time, I felt like I’m missing you a lot. I keep on playing the song Later by Fra Lippo Lippi since then. Inisip ko nun na baka hindi ka na nga talaga bumisita pa uli dito, gaya ng sabi mo.

At hindi ko alam kung dapat pa ba akong matuwa ngayong nandito ka na lalo pa nung malaman ko na yung gf mo eh iniwan ka na dahil nakahanap na ng kapalit mo- gagong babae yan pagkatapos mo habulin all the way from Cagayan de Oro eh mangangaliwa. We already had a night-out with some of our friends and here I am again, planning kung pano ka masisibak. But I told myself to do it slowly yet steady- para surebol kasi napagplanuhan nga.

I am not that 100% sure to pursue it pero shit ka! Pag nakikita kita nakukumpleto mga plano ko… Tae, ano bang kasiguraduhan ang makukuha ko na kapag nasibak na kita eh di na ako uulit pa, ako’y tao lang na nadadarang at natutukso…uli.

Haay can somebody hit me in the head para magising na ako.