My friend from New York arrived last week for a 2-week vacation but instead of having all the time of his life here, he brought along emotional baggage after he broke up with his partner.
And supportive I am, (since we know we have this mutual feeling before but we’re not able to push it through because of some reasons) I seriously gave him pieces of advice just for him to fully recover from the heartbreak. I know him very well and he don’t deserve this kind of relationship full of pretentions, misunderstandings and betrayals. I know how he genuinely love, how he strongly admits his fault and how he considers and respects ideas. Upon hearing his sentiments, I really felt he’ll be having hard time to cope-up with a lot of changes now…lalo na kung ang mga pagbabagong ito ay manggagaling sa mga bagay na nakasanayan mo na.
And it saddens me that we haven’t got the chance to go outside, to finally see each other after almost a year. He invited me for a dinner couple of times dahil sinabi niya na kelangan niya akong makita but I refuse time after time…because of some fears. He knows my situation. I am just hoping that all my advices will be enough kahit na hindi ko ‘to nasambit sa kanya ng personal. I felt bad that this time, when he badly needs someone who could really go with him and help him through this struggle, I was not there.
Four days left and he’ll be going back to NY. I just hope that when he’s already there, he’ll realize this: though your relationship abruptly ended, you should still be happy considering the fact that you already found one true love. I think what’s important here is the experience to genuinely love and be loved back even if it's just for a moment).
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
dangled catch
Nakilala kita through chat and we had several talks… We exchanged numbers and started texting each other. At times, tinatawagan kita just to let you feel na hindi ako drawing or pasikat lang sa chat. It took us five days to finally decide kung kelan tayo magkikita.
Yeah, hesitant ako that day. Nadala ako sa itsura mo so I was able to easily convince myself just to be there. Come the night of our meeting, I saw you waiting patiently sa couch as I drew myself closer to you. You were shocked na narecognize kita and I saw in your face that you are kinda uncertain kung ako nga ba talaga ang ka meet mo. I reached your hand and introduced myself, you did the same thing. I invited you to sit outside upon ordering two grandes, you refused pero wala kang magagawa I do smoke so I have to stay outside until I finished sipping my business.
We had flirty conversations that night and you even asked me to do other business since you’re in the mood but I rejected the offer, di dahil sa ayaw ko but I also have priorities and commitments waiting for me after ours. Nadismaya ka, ganun din ako. We bid each other goodbye with you saying “di bale there’s always next time…” and I took my way home.
And this is the bullshit part, naiinis ako dahil nageexpect ako na magtetext ka after that night. Saturday, Sunday and Monday all passed by pero ni isang text wala akong nareceive. At eto na naman ako, took the initiative just to know kung anu na nangyari sayo and then the rest are just a part of insignificant talks.
Tama ako na hindi muna mag-give in sa gusto mo that night, though it would be a night of pleasure. I felt lucky coz tight ang schedule ko that day, it led me to restrain myself from such.
And now I realized, I found someone na hindi matino kausap… Contacts and even that one-night-episode were all obliterated in my memory.
Yeah, hesitant ako that day. Nadala ako sa itsura mo so I was able to easily convince myself just to be there. Come the night of our meeting, I saw you waiting patiently sa couch as I drew myself closer to you. You were shocked na narecognize kita and I saw in your face that you are kinda uncertain kung ako nga ba talaga ang ka meet mo. I reached your hand and introduced myself, you did the same thing. I invited you to sit outside upon ordering two grandes, you refused pero wala kang magagawa I do smoke so I have to stay outside until I finished sipping my business.
We had flirty conversations that night and you even asked me to do other business since you’re in the mood but I rejected the offer, di dahil sa ayaw ko but I also have priorities and commitments waiting for me after ours. Nadismaya ka, ganun din ako. We bid each other goodbye with you saying “di bale there’s always next time…” and I took my way home.
And this is the bullshit part, naiinis ako dahil nageexpect ako na magtetext ka after that night. Saturday, Sunday and Monday all passed by pero ni isang text wala akong nareceive. At eto na naman ako, took the initiative just to know kung anu na nangyari sayo and then the rest are just a part of insignificant talks.
Tama ako na hindi muna mag-give in sa gusto mo that night, though it would be a night of pleasure. I felt lucky coz tight ang schedule ko that day, it led me to restrain myself from such.
And now I realized, I found someone na hindi matino kausap… Contacts and even that one-night-episode were all obliterated in my memory.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
sunday affair
Last Sunday, we argued. My favor aggravates your mood. You know for a fact that my intention was just to help-out someone who really needs assistance. I asked you if we could lend that person some bucks which will be taken from our joint account but you vehemently said no. You declared it is you who holds the big portion of the total amount of our account and so the decision will have to come from you.
I was emotionally ruined by those statements. It caused me to shy myself away from the painful bites of reality. Yes I’ve got your point, that the account will only be for us but I always end up questioning myself, was my intention not that good to convince you kahit pa binigyan kita ng assurance…
Oh well, good thing I was able to recoup myself after couple of hours. Naisip ko na lang, money should not be an issue for both of us. It should not ruin our smooth-sailing and well-established relationship. See, nagmamature din naman ako…
I was emotionally ruined by those statements. It caused me to shy myself away from the painful bites of reality. Yes I’ve got your point, that the account will only be for us but I always end up questioning myself, was my intention not that good to convince you kahit pa binigyan kita ng assurance…
Oh well, good thing I was able to recoup myself after couple of hours. Naisip ko na lang, money should not be an issue for both of us. It should not ruin our smooth-sailing and well-established relationship. See, nagmamature din naman ako…
Thursday, June 25, 2009
patience is a virtue
May napipintong kakatihan…
FLASHBACK: Nung una kitang makita sa DL mejo nagka interes ako sa’yo. Ewan ko ba pero malakas talaga appeal sa akin ng mga “guys at 30”. You’re a doctor by profession… We talked shortly, able to get your ym address but failed to get each other’s number. Ayos lang, pag natiyempuhan naman kita sa ym I’m sure makukuha ko rin number mo.
Come the day na nagka-chat tayo, potah inisnab mo ako. And I can still remember kung gaano ako kakulit nun sa pag bubuzz sa ym mo just to catch your attention. I am consistent in asking kelan kaya tayo magkikita, just a coffee will do and my treat pero sinabi mo, “dude, paxenxa ka na I’m not into meet-ups wala akong hilig sa mga ganyan.” Therefore I have two guesses, either taken ka na or must admit, di ako mga tipo mo.
Matagal din ang inabot bago ko naisipang i-chat ka uli. And to my surprise nag-iba ata ihip ng hangin. Though you asked me kung sino ako, nakilala mo din naman ako after sending my picture. Well, inentertain mo naman ako. We had these 4 hours flirty conversation in chat which I think led you to invite me for a meet-up. . I asked for your number, you gave it without any hesitation. And then we called it a day.
Really, patience is a virtue. hahaha
FLASHBACK: Nung una kitang makita sa DL mejo nagka interes ako sa’yo. Ewan ko ba pero malakas talaga appeal sa akin ng mga “guys at 30”. You’re a doctor by profession… We talked shortly, able to get your ym address but failed to get each other’s number. Ayos lang, pag natiyempuhan naman kita sa ym I’m sure makukuha ko rin number mo.
Come the day na nagka-chat tayo, potah inisnab mo ako. And I can still remember kung gaano ako kakulit nun sa pag bubuzz sa ym mo just to catch your attention. I am consistent in asking kelan kaya tayo magkikita, just a coffee will do and my treat pero sinabi mo, “dude, paxenxa ka na I’m not into meet-ups wala akong hilig sa mga ganyan.” Therefore I have two guesses, either taken ka na or must admit, di ako mga tipo mo.
Matagal din ang inabot bago ko naisipang i-chat ka uli. And to my surprise nag-iba ata ihip ng hangin. Though you asked me kung sino ako, nakilala mo din naman ako after sending my picture. Well, inentertain mo naman ako. We had these 4 hours flirty conversation in chat which I think led you to invite me for a meet-up. . I asked for your number, you gave it without any hesitation. And then we called it a day.
Really, patience is a virtue. hahaha
Sunday, June 21, 2009
happy pudrak's day
(late posting)Sa lahat ng Tatay…
Sa mga magiging Tatay…
Sa mga Tatay-tatayan…
Sa mga Tatay na mukhang Nanay…
Sa Nanay na mukhang Tatay…
Sa Tatay na Top…
Sa Tatay na Bottom…
Sa Tatay na Separated…
Sa Tatay na Separated…
Sa Tatay na Complicated…
Sa Tatay na Baog…
Sa mga Tatay na Lasinggero…
Sa mga Tatay na mahilig sa Chicks…
Sa mga Tatay na mahilig sa kapwa Tatay…
Sa Tatay na Pabigat…
Sa Tatay na Pamenta…
Sa Tatay na nagsisilakihan ang Tiyan…
Sa Tatay na Matigas…
Sa Tatay na Lambut- lambutan…
Sa Tatay mo…
Sa Tatay ko…
Sa Tatay ko…
Happy Father’s Day!
Friday, June 19, 2009
one alluring convention
I just came from attending the MAFBEX Convention in World Trade Center, the biggest and most comprehensive food show in the country. Here, top food and beverage companies were given chance to promote their products and their business as well.
I thought it’s gonna be a no-fun-no-excitement convention but to my surprise, ang daming PWEDE! Hehehe. In contrast to my expectations, there’s a good number of handsome guys pa pala na may interes sa mga ganitong conventions. Ohlala… lumikot, gumala at nagpiyesta ang mata ko.
Though it’s a food show, nabusog ako not because of the convention itself but mainly because of cuties and hotties present in the venue.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
kakatihan
Hindi ko maikakaila na minsan nagiging makati din ako. I’m trying to be an honest and loyal partner pero minsan pumapalya ako simply because of certain unexpected occurrences.
May 25. Dumating ka dito sa Manila pero wala akong kaalam-alam. I still remember the days na nagtetext tayo, you’re asking for some financial help para may pampamasahe ka mahabol lang ang girlfriend mo dito before she totally leaves towards Singapore. Nag-offer ako ng assistance and I promised to help you out pero sa isang kundisyon- na you’ll spend one titillating night with me. You definitely agree just to be here asap. And I was surprise na nandito ka na pala even without my support. Ganun ka ka-desperate and ka-eager para makahanp ng diskarte dun para sundan lang ang gf mo. I admire you for that, how you really love that woman.
Nung una pa lang naman kita makita, I know I have this hidden admiration over you but I kept this in my heart. Pinaniwala ko sarili ko na hindi ka naman dapat hangaan, you’re just an ordinary person anyway. But then when you left Manila that time, I felt like I’m missing you a lot. I keep on playing the song Later by Fra Lippo Lippi since then. Inisip ko nun na baka hindi ka na nga talaga bumisita pa uli dito, gaya ng sabi mo.
At hindi ko alam kung dapat pa ba akong matuwa ngayong nandito ka na lalo pa nung malaman ko na yung gf mo eh iniwan ka na dahil nakahanap na ng kapalit mo- gagong babae yan pagkatapos mo habulin all the way from Cagayan de Oro eh mangangaliwa. We already had a night-out with some of our friends and here I am again, planning kung pano ka masisibak. But I told myself to do it slowly yet steady- para surebol kasi napagplanuhan nga.
I am not that 100% sure to pursue it pero shit ka! Pag nakikita kita nakukumpleto mga plano ko… Tae, ano bang kasiguraduhan ang makukuha ko na kapag nasibak na kita eh di na ako uulit pa, ako’y tao lang na nadadarang at natutukso…uli.
Haay can somebody hit me in the head para magising na ako.
May 25. Dumating ka dito sa Manila pero wala akong kaalam-alam. I still remember the days na nagtetext tayo, you’re asking for some financial help para may pampamasahe ka mahabol lang ang girlfriend mo dito before she totally leaves towards Singapore. Nag-offer ako ng assistance and I promised to help you out pero sa isang kundisyon- na you’ll spend one titillating night with me. You definitely agree just to be here asap. And I was surprise na nandito ka na pala even without my support. Ganun ka ka-desperate and ka-eager para makahanp ng diskarte dun para sundan lang ang gf mo. I admire you for that, how you really love that woman.
Nung una pa lang naman kita makita, I know I have this hidden admiration over you but I kept this in my heart. Pinaniwala ko sarili ko na hindi ka naman dapat hangaan, you’re just an ordinary person anyway. But then when you left Manila that time, I felt like I’m missing you a lot. I keep on playing the song Later by Fra Lippo Lippi since then. Inisip ko nun na baka hindi ka na nga talaga bumisita pa uli dito, gaya ng sabi mo.
At hindi ko alam kung dapat pa ba akong matuwa ngayong nandito ka na lalo pa nung malaman ko na yung gf mo eh iniwan ka na dahil nakahanap na ng kapalit mo- gagong babae yan pagkatapos mo habulin all the way from Cagayan de Oro eh mangangaliwa. We already had a night-out with some of our friends and here I am again, planning kung pano ka masisibak. But I told myself to do it slowly yet steady- para surebol kasi napagplanuhan nga.
I am not that 100% sure to pursue it pero shit ka! Pag nakikita kita nakukumpleto mga plano ko… Tae, ano bang kasiguraduhan ang makukuha ko na kapag nasibak na kita eh di na ako uulit pa, ako’y tao lang na nadadarang at natutukso…uli.
Haay can somebody hit me in the head para magising na ako.
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